those days on which it is hard to do the thing are the days on which you have to do the thing.
the rest of the days are easy. it flows. you are into it. you know what you have to do.
but today is not one of those days.
so you've just got to show up, and do what you told yourself that you would do.
you may look like a maniac.
you may hate yourself because what is coming out is not worthy of what you are used to.
but those are exactly the days on which you've got to do it.
do it.
without lmitations.
without trying to understand.
without trying to find meaning,
just do it.
just embrace whatever is alive in you in that moment, and create from there.
that is what i'm doing exactly in this moment, as i write these words.
i don't feel like writing.
i don't have anything to say.
and that is exactly why i should do it.
over and over again.
i decided that this was going to be a craft on which i would allow my human-ness to unfold.
and that is what i'm doing.
here and now.
in this moment, developing new perspectives to experience myself in relationship to the creative act that i decided to pursue.
i want to be a writer.
i am a writer.
and for being a better writer, i have to write.
it is not a matter of what i write about. it is a matter of experiencing myself as a writer.
and the consequences that come from that.
i see myself as a writer.
i experience myself as a writer.
and i honor myself in the capacity that i have to write.
and that can only happen if i do the thing.
and i see my shadows and the light.
on the good ones.
on the bad ones.
i see myself with this noise on top of my head, like a cloud that resembles the storm that is coming.
the storm is outside me.
the storm burns from the inside.
the storm is everything that is, and it burns.
it wants to burn it all.
and facing myself when i feel like this is not the thing that i would say i was born for.
but the more i do it.
the more i stare into that burning fire.
the more i realize that i'm here to experience myself in relationship to this writing.
i'm here to experience myself in relationship to this moment.
as it is.
through what is.
and it burns. and let it keep burning. let it burn everything that is felt inside. let it transform what is inside into whatever wants to come.
and just allow the process of writing to be the vehicle to embrace that.
to feel it with more clarity.
to experience it with more clarity.
just allow all the words to come. just allow yourself to experience what is inside in relationship to them.
as you are.
through what you are.
that is the beauty of the creative act, and facing yourself when you don't feel like practicing your craft.
honoring that resistance.
being in front of that resistance.
and watching it burn with that fire.
with the fire that wants something to happen.
something to come.
the unseen to be manifested through your actions.
allow it to burn.
allow all of what comes to burn.
we are here for that.
to arise from the ashes.
and to honor what is left.
with the power of your intention.
and the upmost willingness to be who you are.
is there any limit to that?
is there any boundaries to the expression of that?
it is all what is.
it is all what is.
and we are here, exploring it together.
right here.
right now.
let it burn.
let it all burn
.
It really hurts